I should be studying

"The best thing, though, in that museum was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody'd move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still be just finished catching those two fish, the birds would still be on their way south, the deers would still be drinking out of that water hole […]. Nobody'd be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you'd be so much older or anything. It wouldn't be that exactly. You'd just be different, that's all. You'd have an overcoat on this time. Or that kid that was your partner in line last time had got scarlet fever and you'd have a new partner. Or you'd have a substitute taking the class, instead of Miss Aigletinger. Or you'd heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. Or you'd just passed by one of those puddles in the street with gasoline rainbows in them. I mean you'd be different in some way – I can't explain what I mean. And even if I could, I'm not sure I'd feel like it."
 ~Holden Caulfield

a drawing I made in the summer at Jesper's house

When I was 4 and Princess Diaries came out, I wanted to be Mia. I didn't realize that she was being portrayed as unglamorous. To me Mia seemed like the most glamorous being in the world. She was a teenager for chrissake! Boy was I wrong about teenagers. My teenage years didn't turn out the way I expected them to when I was 4.

Right now I'm having exams at school and I should be studying Chem. But instead I'm blogging. So easily tempted. I also at a load of chips and pizza today after eating healthy all week. UGH LAURA.

Ever since I read "The Catcher in the Rye" last summer, I have felt sentimental towards gasoline puddles. I really really really liked the book. I didn't relate to Holdens thought of action, but I could understand it. He reminded me of myself (how I feel on the inside) but also my brother (the stupid shit he does) and some other teens I know. I kind of want to marry Holden. And Michael Moscovitz (Robert Schwartsman in Princess Diaries).

sarcastic bitch introduction

This is my first blog post on ~melancholicteen~. I am Laura: a teenager who is melancholic. I used to have a hosted blog named "vampire vomit", but this guy I was in a "relationship" with for two weeks read that and that made everything super awkward. Oh plus I confessed about being in love with this guy and he read that and he never talked to me again. I don't really mind thought. He just made me feel caged whenever I tried to post anything. Like he was always watching me. I don't feel the need to be friends with him, but I hope he's alright in life thought. I can be such a bitch sometime.

I would make a fashion blog if I wheren't so fat. But then again, the internet has enough of those. We can't all be Tavi Gevenson. Btw, we have the same birthday (me and tavs). Actually, you can be Tavi Gevenson if you want to. But I don't. I want to be myself. Because I'm just so fucking cool.

I would post poetry, but I want to print and publish/sell a zine first so I can mark my territory. I mean, my poems are so great, everyone will want to steal them. I'm kind of a sarcastic bitch if you hadn't noticed. I also specialize in being jealous. And self loathing. CHyea, this is going to be such a fun blog.



I dance to this at 4 amz

september 2011

drew this for chris' bday